"I think it might be getting to me."

I'm okay, this song is just hitting today!

I feel fundamentally broken, incapable of interfacing with human life in an agreeable manner… but that didn’t stop a hundred billion dipshits before me!!!

"Look upon me, does the idiot bleed" is one of my favorite things anyone's ever said in a song. And this album has become one I can return to any moment, and revel in.

Super Sonic Saves the World

GrandPOObear’s excellent playthrough

Jimmy Eat World — "It Matters"

I just can't get enough of how this song sounds

I keep trying to start writing about “how I feel” right now, and it’s both too hard to articulate AND immediately boring to me. I’m not sure what you’re supposed to do if you can’t be even a little bit invested in your own story, but right now I’m finding that really difficult!

Anyway, just wanted to type out loud that if I could be less of a weird fuck-up, I would be!!! And I’m always trying to be. I’ve learned so much, but feel like I started from such a deficit in terms of understanding anything at all, while accruing increasing damage along the way. It hurts to try to have bigger, deeper thoughts right now. Like walking on glass. There’s just too much, within myself, and in the unfortunate world, to grapple with right now. I barely survived the last few years. I’m maybe in a more stable place now. I’m really, really trying to be all right and do well by the people who still put up with me.

Jimmy Eat World — It Matters

"I imagine talks that last all night.
Never bring it up, but every day I want to.
I think about us dancing, but it's not something we do.
Well there's my dream — doesn't it sound good to you?"

Jimmy Eat World — Sure and Certain

"What you do works for a time,
until you drop without a warning
sign"

What a week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why is it so hard to feel good for very long at all? good lord. I haven’t been able to fully relax in at least a month and I’m feeling it!

why does the mind decide to want things