At a tender age I learned to scrub my feelings whenever they went against the grain.
I didn't trust myself to not be taken captive.
I couldn’t hear my heart singing.
Please, get me outta here. All of a sudden I don't feel so good!
I ignored my gut so I could be a good boy, which will make you bad in different ways.
I don't have anything specific to say about this, except that when I heard this I thought, "Yeah, I sure wish I hadn't tried to 'be a good boy' as much as I did!"
OH WELL
WHOOOPSIE DAISIES
I thought about taking a picture of myself to commemorate, but I look like shit right now!! Maybe tomorrow. In the meantime, here's a picture Tony took of me, on a video call today, trying to explain animating a book from the worst possible angle!!!
Look: I was already tired, trying to make coffee, and ultimately my point was conveyed.
I'm about to be 34! What in the fuck!!!!! I sure don't feel as old as that sounds, but at the same time, I do feel like my youth is now fully behind me. Luckily, I disprove that feeling by being an absolute baby every day!
My birthday will be spent working, because that's what you do as a grown-up. Maybe I'll have some relaxation time over the weekend! In fact: I DEMAND IT
If you wanna "celebrate me," you can send me the gift of money on my ko-fi page! I got a little bit of paid work for this month, but times remain tight over here. I promise I'll get myself something fun with any money I receive.
Or you can email me a nice memory you have of me; it's hard for me to remember a lot of nice things that have happened lately.
Either way, I hope you enjoy my birthday! Someday we'll be able to celebrate anything at all, together again. <3
sorry — starstruck
hum — inlet
"To lie on the grass here, and be swallowed in"
illuminati hotties — b yr own b
Acceptance — Wasted Nights
The new Tony Hawk game rules; it is my entertainment purchase for September! I could go on at excruciating length about how much I like the first few THPS games, but suffice to say this one feels pretty darn good to me. I love the younger skaters they added to the roster, and so far all of the new music I've heard has been great, too. The immediate standout for me is this song "Sedona" by JunkBunny. I will never get enough of a soaring, harmonized chorus. The video is pretty cute, too:
Do you like how many of my post subject lines are just simple statements and requests lately? I think it's funny, and also don't want to waste anyone's time if I can help it! Sometimes I can't help it.
If you have a Stadia (and who doesn't????? (lol)), you can play a game called Gunsport that is a neat 2v2 fun time! Several of my friends worked on it!!!
And whether you do or not, if you like cool beats and hot melodies and fresh but classic electronic sounds, you should listen to the soundtrack! Ice Choir (aka Kurt Feldman) made it, and he's one of my favorite songwriters!!! Here's a BIG PLAY BUTTON FOR YA
CHECK IT OUT FUCKERS!!!!!!
Also from this interview with David Graeber:
I’m increasingly convinced the system is only being held together by morality. A very odd, twisted morality. That’s why I wrote one book about the morality of debt, and another about the morality of work.
Even many people who know perfectly well our economic system is fundamentally stupid and unjust, also really seem to believe that anyone who doesn’t pay their debts is a bad person. Deadbeats are irresponsible and have only themselves to blame. Likewise, even people who hate their bosses seem to feel that skivers are even worse, that if you’re not working harder than you’d like at something you don’t much enjoy, preferably for someone you don’t like very much, then you’re a bad person, a parasite, and certainly, undeserving of public relief.
People really seem to believe in the sanctity of work. Not just work, jobs. Everyone should get a job. It doesn’t matter if the work is actually doing anyone any good or not. In fact at least a third of the working population appears to be personally convinced that if their job did not exist it would make no difference—or even, that the world would be a better place without it. The sanctity of work, the sanctity of debt, the sanctity of “the market”—all these things are deeply internalised and they are all extremely problematic.
Problematic as … Wrong?
Rich people do not believe in debt, at least not in their own debt. They certainly do not think that paying their debts is the matter of honour. Half of my former employers wouldn’t have paid me at all if they could figure out a way not to. But even more, if you’re in a position of weakness, debt is morality; if you’re in a position of strength, debt is power. That is why I started a book on Debt with an old proverb: if you owe a bank a hundred thousand dollars, the bank owns you. If you owe the bank of hundred million dollars, you own the bank.
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But the moral trick is so bizarrely effective. Otherwise decent people think it’s totally justified to take food away from hungry children because their former dictator took out a bad loan.