If you can, and I know it's a fucking ridiculous time, I need to ask for help! I've been having a hard time making ends meet for a couple of years now, but have continued to scrape together enough to keep going. Right now it's not looking so great! I just had to move out of the house where I've lived for the last few years because my housemate was going back to work in person with kids and that's a covid risk! I'm staying with my partner Christina temporarily in her little studio apartment, but I need to get a new place, and can't afford the rent on anything even remotely close to here. I haven't had a working car since last spring, when mine broke down and I couldn't repair it.
Since starting antidepressants last fall, I have majorly rehabilitated my capacity for work. I spend so little on things that aren't rent and food. I've spent most of the year since February working on a small game project that should be announced in the next month or two; but we're in the tail end of a longer-than-expected dev cycle (which, duh), and the money is running out. I have some web work lined up that I'll be able to do hopefully in the next month. But basically every month or two for the last two years I've scrabbled to get enough money together to pay everything I'm responsible for. It's exhausting, as I'm sure you know!
I'm turning 34 in a few weeks. After working low-wage jobs for a decade, then getting paid better but working contract to contract for most of the last... 5 years? I'm looking for something with longer-term stability; I'd love to find a way to keep working on game projects, especially on any of the half dozen designs I have sketched out that would give a fresh and meaningful injection of creativity into the world of games! In the meantime, I'll keep making web sites. I'd like to have time to do more public-facing creative stuff like podcasting and writing. But right now I'm focused on making a living and not dying! I haven't bought new glasses in 9 years! I don't have health insurance! I'm gonna need a new computer soon! Shit is bleak if I take even one tiny step back and peek out from between my trembling fingers, but I'm still going!!!!!!!
If you wanna help me keep the lights on and fund time for me to bring things in the world for you to enjoy, or if you just have a steady income and want to help out your friend who does not, how about you click on that Ko-fi button and subscribe to Keeping Me Alive!!! Or, send me a little one-time chump o'change! I dunno. I appreciate all of you who pay literally any attention to me despite everything, so thanks either way.