wow I sure am feeling chaotic and contrary today! feeling very pent up and like I'd rather be running around and yelling than sitting still at the computer, again, doing cognitively-demanding work, unable to to even contemplate going anywhere or doing something more interesting
Says Jorge Luis Borges, "I should say [...] that I want to stop waking up every morning, finding: Well, here I am, I have to go back to Borges.
"There's a word in Spanish... instead of saying 'to wake up,' you say recordarse, that is, to record yourself, to remember yourself... Every morning I get that feeling because I am more or less nonexistent. Then when I wake up, I always feel I'm being let down. Because, well, here I am. Here's the same old stupid game going on. I have to be somebody. I have to be exactly that somebody.
BEEP BORP OH WELL